I have really been missing my Mom the past few weeks. I am never sure what brings it on [like this], It is selfish, I think, because it is about me needing her, but it happens, and it is hard.
Loosing my mom to breast cancer was a painful thing...Maybe one day I will blog more about that experience. But right now I just miss her!
Last weekend Mark and I participated in the Race for the Cure..It is always an emotional event for me. I am always blown away by the number of people that come out for the event and you understand the phrase "there is power in numbers". When everyone does a little, a lot get done. So many lives are effected and you feel kinship with strangers.
Survivors wear pink t-shirts, my heart breaks at the sight of them. I am SO happy for them and their families but I want MY mom. Participants wear back tags that have in celebration of, or in memory of...Mine is in memory of..I want to wear the other one! I read them as I walk...All of them...I walk, I cry, I walk I cry..Everyone understands the pain, but hopes for the end, the cure to come. I want it for others, but I wanted it for my mom, so I wouldn't have to live without her.
I won't ever understand...I am ok with that, because faith and questioning go together, they are a parallel journey . She taught me so much and much I am only realizing now, I am only understanding now....
I won't ever not miss her.
"When you are sorrowful
look again into your heart,
And you shall see that
in truth you are weeping
for that which has been your delight"
Kahlil Gibran
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I echo that. JC and I did the Race for the Cure here in Miami this past Saturday! It was nice and I feel a lot of the same emotions when I am there and walking/running. I think that it is ok though to feel that way...atleast I hope so.
I love your spirit and how willing you are to share it with all of us...
love you
Ahhh Miss Lori...your heart always touches us and you lay it out there so freely. Thank you for inviting us into your world. I will be praying for a daughters heart who aches without her momma. Love you.
hey baby,
Not a day goes by that I don't think of my dad and he's been gone for 32 years. I so wish you and Ryan and Eric could have known him.
Hi Lori,
Thanks for sharing your feelings. Thanks also for the Gibran quote at the end. I think it's true. I could say more, but I think it's more appropriate for a real conversation. (coffee?)
YES!!!
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