life goes on

over the past few days my daughter and son and law were home to birmingham for a wedding weekend. it was great to have the here and enjoy sometime with them during this new time in their lives as they are expecting their first baby. i haven't been home a week yet and i have lots to do before I leave again...it has been a crazy summer of traveling and being away from mark. i am about to head out again to visit family and spend some time with eric, jenny and will, i am really looking forward to this time.

i have had a lot of thoughts lately about the past 4 or 5 years, maybe longer, as i have journeyed along with the christ and how very different I feel and how my thoughts have revolved and heightened. to try and say how would be impossible, i think. i know i look at the whole world differently and this christian walk as a whole different existence. i have freed myself of doing god's work and am now doing what i feel is the call of his own. it is an amazingly freeing and empowering idea that it is possible to change the world for the kingdom. i do know that this is not easy and it does not come without doubt in many forms, but it is amazing to be in the midst of the fog clearing and seeing the kingdom in a loving and purposeful light. a vision of good news that is truly good news to a hurting world. i know that this is no easy call and i am realizing the meaning of the warnings in scripture in a very real way right now; giving up all for the cause, love your neighbor as yourself, it truly is a day to day decision to live life in contrast to this world. not in the way we think..not by taking the moral high road [that isn't all that hard really], but by truly living with the needs of others in front of myself in every decision i make, what i wear, what i buy, how much i spend and why, how i treat all people, how i love. positioning ones self to be available for the needs of others is a deliberate and loving act, but it is hard and can only be accomplished when we are simply servants.