rambling.......for what it is worth

I hate feeling out of control. I hate not being able to produce the out come I want in any given situation and today I feel totally out of control. I guess that is part of the journey now isn't? Learning that we are never really in control at all, ever. It is one of lives biggest elusions. Every situation depends on many choices made by many people. I guess that is why this world is such a mess. Because we all live wanting to be in control so we live in a way that is self motivated which takes the focus off the the bigger picture which creates, well what we have, a big mess! We all have choices to make, and mine can't always be about "me", really should never be about me. But like I said I hate feeling out of control, so I make things about me. I guess that is why scripture tells us to allow God to be in control, because He is the ONLY one who can handle any and all situations without bias and with total love.