There is trouble in trying to explain the feelings I have on a day like this, because pictures and words lack so much...They lack the smells and sounds..They lack seeing the filth and the minimal care the children receive.
It is days like today that I become acutely aware of what I can handle and what I can't! Have you ever thought you are something you are not? Or let me say, something you want to think you are but are not! I am not a Florence nightingale! My sister Cheryl is ...I love that about her! I thought a lot about her today and her ability to care for the sick, hurting and dying. I know without a doubt I cannot handle it, it is not in me! Every thing that makes my stomach turn, makes me turn my head and close my eyes she boldly approaches with love and compassion and brings peace, comfort and healing to those she touches. I want to be that person but I am not and I guess I am ok with that but I really WANT to be stronger.
Is that something you can pray for???
God, give me your strength! Help me to be all that You can make me for those who suffer and are sick and dying.
again you can link to www.rjchernandez.blogspot.com for more about the day!
1 comment:
We have all been given different "gifts" for use in the Kingdom-like you,Lori,this is NOT one of mine! As you admire your sister's abilities in the healing arts so I admire my sister's ability to do the same and wish I had just a bit more of it myself but I don't-thank God that there are those who "can" when we "can't"!
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